Teacher Tori does NOT like limbo

Well I just had my observation meeting with the principal. He said I did a good job and I had good marks on my evalation. Then he says that "I've left him on the fence" as to what he's going to do about me next year. So yeah, basically NOTHING was answered and I'm still going to be in limbo for the next couple weeks. I have had 3 awesome evaluations by the Principal and the Director of Curriculum and Instruction, I don't know how they could possibly let me go. The principal's concerns centered around if I am strict enough in PE, but I was observed in Health b/c I'm not teaching PE this semester. He said he would talk to the lady who DID evaluate me in PE and look at that evaluation further. Thats a good thing but I have a very good relationship with that lady and her write-up was awesome! So, yeah my eye twitch will be around for another couple weeks and I've started to have pain and a little bit of tingling and numbness in my left arm. Is this school giving me a heart attack? Can a 26 year old have a heart attack?

God, I just need to find SOME stability in my life right now (besides parents). At least last year when I was going through this I had a loving boyfriend who was my rock and I felt like I could get through anything. I would call him terrified and he would tell me everything is going to be okay. Now, since he's gone and I had to end things with the new guy so I have to learn to rely on myself for strength. As soon as I know I will be here next year, I will be able to scrape my life back together and chill out. I thought that was going to be resolved today but I guess I've waited a long time to find out and I can suffer through another couple weeks.

Thanks to all of you out there that have been so supportive of me and taking the time to read these personal posts. I normally don't sit around and feel sorry for myself, but hopefully this rough patch is going to smooth out soon and I can get back to being "happy teacher tori!!!"